Feelings from today...

I was reading a blog from somebody and they were talking about backstabbers and everything, and though it sounds really dumb for me to take offense to it, I did. As the saying goes, Truth hurts. And how this person described the minds of a backstabber, it was true. Very true. I could relate to it in each and every way. How he described it made me feel so bad. The ways backstabbers hurt others and how they betray their friends. I can relate back to numerous occasions when I have betrayed people for no reason, when all they did was love me. And all I could do was treat them like shit. Anyways, let me tell you guys a little bit about how the mind of a backstabber works. If you're like me, It's because you've been hurt in the past, and you take all your anger out on everyone else. Like they say, misery loves company, but trust me, when you make everybody miserable around you, it just makes you even worse. Trust me. I know. And it's a miracle that after all I've been through, I was still able to find love (somewhere else in the world), and give love. I remember telling my boyfriend once that I just for once wanted someone who wouldn't hurt me, and for once, I wanted someone to love me, and someone to love. He hadn't really promised that he wouldn't hurt me. But If he does break my heart, I don't think I'm ever going to move on. I know that sounds so childish, but falling in love is so hard, and once you get into it, you don't want to get out because when you look back on everything it took to get into this position that you're at now, you don't want to go back. You know how it feels to be whole, you don't want to go back to being what you were before (I know I kinda bit it from Guess who! Ha!). You don't want to be back to that position that you were at before. You're at your highest of highs, and you don't want to go back to your lowest of lows. You don't want to have to deal with your feelings again. So here goes another question for y'all, and MAYBE, some of y'all will actually answer it: What is the difference between love and puppy love? And give an example if you can.