Love=Happiness=Heartbreak=Pain=Hate

Wow! What a day! Especially for one of my best friends. Her boyfriend left her for some masculine looking girl on the wrestling team. Then he had the nerve to tell her that it wasn't over, just wait for him. I was like, "I will be damned if I let you go back to that worthless piece of shit." I may not talk to people, and I may keep to myself, but when it comes to my friends (well my GOOD friends) and family, I just go off! I hate seeing close friends and family being hurt. Because it hurts me. Especially when they get a broken heart. That's one thing I'd never wish on anyone. That can turn a person cold. I'd rather get shot than have a broken heart. Nevermind, I take that back because you actually have a chance of recovering from a broken heart!!! I couldn't really tell her anything because I've never really been hurt like that; in an intimate relationship at least. But from my past experiences, all I can tell her is to be strong. She'll get over it. We all do. You'll look back on this in a few weeks, months, and maybe even years, and you'll be like "He so wasn't worth all that crying and pain I put myself through." But, you know how it goes with that stuff. It takes time to heal. You have to go back through that whole "self-rebuilding" thing, and get used to life without him. I should have told her all of this. But anyways, that's why I haven't lost my virginity to anyone. Because when you're finally through with that person, you're gonna have that regret in your heart, and it's just going to be THAT much harder to get over them. And then you're going to be like, "I should have waited." I don't want to put myself through that. It's bad enough that you have to get used to seeing that person all the time and knowing that you'll never ever be their number 1 or that you'll never be intimate with them again. I guess that's why so many people are so scared of love. And I don't blame them. I'm scared to fall in love. Love is one of those things that feels so good, but at the same time it hurts like HELL! But all I can say for my girl is that I got her back. I can't stand seeing her cry but, hey, that's life. She's going to experience worse, and this is just one of those things that she'll look back on and be glad that it happened.
Well, on to me. My cousin and I haven't talked in forever. I tried talking to her on the phone but it's awkward. Maybe because I'm so used to talking to her on the internet. Now I can't get used to talking to her on the phone. That's so weird to me! My boyfriend and I haven't talked in over a month. Yes, A MONTH! We've been together for 2 months now, tommorow. But, all I can say is that my love for him is stronger than ever, and I don't know why. I don't know if the same applies for him though. Well, I've basically caught you up with my life these last couple of days. Nothing's really happened. Nothing AMAZING happens in my life. So, Bye everyone, and Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays. Whatever... ha ha ha! Have a nice day, and may you never have to experience heartbreak.