Still Can't believe he's gone...

Hello blogger,
Sorry I haven't been on lately, it's just been a lot of things happening lately. Any who, today was my best friend (we'll just refer to him as "G") G's last day. He's going to Colorado. Of course when I heard this, I was heartbroken. I mean, I couldn't stand him last year. This year I've seen a cuter, more mature side of G that I never knew he had. And for the longest time, G was just there, he wasn't really important to me. Like last month, I started to notice the beautiful person that he was. Now he's gone. He was the only one I could talk to when I needed an ear. But that's how the military is, you stay in one place for maybe a year, and then you're gone. G is, I have to say, the closest I think I'll ever be with a man in my entire life. I mean, there's a lot of things that men have done to me in the past and for a while I just didn't trust men at all. But G came a long and he made me feels so comfortable and open with him. When I'm around him I feel like can't no harm come my way. In the past two months since we've started talking so much, I've basically shared my whole life stories with him. And what I love about him is that if he ever lost any respect for me when I told him some of these things, he never showed it. He didn't act like I was some piece of meat like most men treat me, and I love him for that. Basically what I'm trying to say is that I could actually see myself marrying G in my future. I don't know if it's just infatuation or if there's really feelings there, but I really, really could see myself having a long-term relationship with him. What sucks is that when I finally put all my trust in someone who doesn't judge me for the shit I've done and the shit I haven't done, it seems like God rips them out of my life. But then again, I can't blame everything on God. This is the doing of man and that dumb service called the military. But if G and I are as close as I think we are, then our paths will cross yet again. Hey, we'll be out of high school soon. We'll be grown and everything. We'll have jobs and we'll be able to visit each other without permission. But to G, "I love you boo. Just know that whereever you go, you'll always be in my heart because I got mad love for you baby." And to all those others looking for their love: "He/She's out there, you just have to let them come to you. And stop looking so hard. Sometimes the person you end up being with is the person closest to you that for some reason you keep ignoring... THINK ABOUT IT!!!